(taken from my iPhone last Friday afternoon)

I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately. It seriously took everything in me to sit down and write this blog entry. I think I’m coming down with a cold too and that never helps any situation.

Because of the snow and ice Neil’s school has been called off like every two or three days and although I am REALLY enjoying all this time with him I know that once winter is over it’ll go back to how it was before: seeing him an hour during the day in between school and work and an hour at night when he gets home from work, before he goes to bed. Those times when he’s actually home he’s either sleeping, eating, or working on something for student teaching. None of that is his fault either so I can’t get all whiny and needy. It’s stuff he HAS to do. Just another reason why I’m ready for summer.

Speaking of summer, I am not missing it for the same reasons as others. Yea sure, things are easier when the weather isn’t in the negatives and there isn’t ice covering your car every morning but none of those things really bother me. One of the things I LOVE about Kentucky is that we have experience all four seasons. Last Tuesday when we had our big snow my mom’s friend Ellen spent the day with us so we took a morning walk. It was so beautiful!

In other news: I’ve been thinking about bringing back the daily themed blogs. At least for a little while until I get out of this rut. What do you all think? Any theme suggestions?

Yea sure, every wife has been heard saying that she has the best husband in the world at least once in her lifetime and I know I’ve said it more than just a few times. What can I say, I love the guy.

Seriously though, he does the sweetest things and treats me so well that sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve him. What did I do to keep such a catch?

Background story time! When my mom and I were planning my wedding my dad gave us a set amount and whatever we didn’t use Neil and I got to keep. Sweet deal right? So needless to say I cut corners on everything I thought I could with still having a kick ass wedding, the wedding of my dreams. A friend of the family, fellow church member, and seasoned photographer answered one of our prayers when he said he’d love to photograph the wedding free of charge and just give us the disc of the photos and we could print off whatever we wanted. That right there saved us $2,000+ and on top of that a friend and former client of my dad’s offered to pay for the honeymoon. You just gotta love connections! After saving money on the two most expensive items of a wedding we decided that was enough penny pinching and my mom and went back to going all out. FUN!

Being as particular as I am meant that every aspect of my wedding that I had a direct hand in, aka everything, turned out exactly how I imagine it would. Everything was perfect. Except my pictures. I guess my photographer assumed since he wasn’t charging us that he didn’t have to listen to us. He just did whatever the eff he wanted that day and boy does it show. I never cared too much for his work really but thought I could guide him along that day as to what I wanted and things would be dandy. WRONG.

I am a designer. Creative and art inspired. Lover of all things musical and fun. I feel like my wedding pictures should have shown my personality a bit instead of lacking in personality completely.  Yea, yea, yea, I got them for free so I shouldn’t complain. Had I known he wasn’t going to listen to a damn thing I requested/suggested all day long then I would NOT have gone with him, free or not. My mom and I had so many ideas, looked forward to so many great pictures to chose from. I think we liked 3 out of more than 400. I’m not kidding. The pictures you see on this site and on my facebook are all from friends’ cameras.

Two and one half years later and it still upsets me. I don’t have any pictures that I love. LOVE. None of me in my dress, of my dress at all. My beautiful, one of a kind dress. None of me and Neil together that shows how happy we were that day, how much in love we are. Yesterday, as my mom and I were cleaning out my keepsake chest at my parents’ house, I was reminded again how important it is to me that I have those beautiful pictures now and on down the road to remind myself of that day. When I came home last night I whined to Neil about it for like 10 minutes. Sweet boy, he gets points just for staying in the room with me while I complained. But he did more than that.

This afternoon I received this text from him:

Hey babe. How has your day been? Mine? It’s been slow and boring so I got to thinking. That thinking turned into searching and that searching turned into phoning. I thought about what you said last night. You’re unhappy with how our wedding pictures turned out. I can’t say that I see why, you’re beautiful in every one of them, but that’s why I’m me and you’re you. You wanted something more than just pictures, you wanted memories captured. I can’t turn back the clock to 2.5 years ago and punch that dude in the face for not listening to you and taking the pictures you wanted. I can’t fix that for you and I hate that. But I can make hire a better, more “artsy” photographer to take pictures of you in your dress for our anniversary this summer. I can and I did. Since my day has been so slow I searched the internet and found a photographer whose work I think you’ll really like. I called him up and explained the situation and got you an appointment in July. I hope you don’t mind. I just want you to have pictures you love to look at. I’m sorry it took me this long to do it. Happy 3 Year Anniversary….early.

I couldn’t reply right away because I was shocked. He’s never done anything like this before and I’m finally going to have the pictures of my dreams and….I’m just so excited. This is SO important to me and Neil understood that he’s making it right even though he’s not the one who made it wrong. Thank you baby!